# 1 - An awakening

My visit with the chiropractor took an unusual twist the summer of 2009. Without knowing my whole journey, who else could believe what occurred? 
 
The powerful truth, that someone from the unseen world was, or is able to reach my thoughts and have an effect on my behaviors. Guiding me through life's maze of events.
 
Confirmation came in an undeniable way. A simple trip to visit with the family chiropractor opened new possibilities.
 
As Dr. White and I were getting to know each other, I learned we shared a painful life experience.
 
His father's recent suicide had left an open wound for him and reopened an old wound for me. He couldn't say much, but the little he shared made it clear, his grieving would be a long process. It had been over forty years of painful confusion for me.
 
As I attempted to return empathy, I felt at a loss.
 
Leaving his office, I felt physically improvement, yet, I was very frustrated that I couldn't offer more emotional help to him. I couldn’t find the right words.
 
It was a hot summer day. I needed to return back to my office job. I needed refreshments before I jumped on the interstate for the forty-minute drive.
 
Hungry and thirsty, I stopped at a little store and grabbed a sandwich.  I was hoping to find a park, some place cool to eat, relax and ponder feelings.  
 
Traffic was making my goal difficult in the unfamiliar area.  
 
I came to the first busy street. I ended up in the wrong lane. I had to stay in the right lane.  The traffic forced me onward. I was becoming frustrated. It seemed that I was traveling further away from the small town, away from where I should be.
 
Due to the fast-moving heavy flow of traffic, I had to keep going. It seemed I missed every possible opportunity to change my direction. Finally, I noticed a cemetery ahead. I notice a memorial wall for Veterans. There were trees, that meant shade. 
 
All of a sudden, the traffic cleared. I could change into the left lane. Next, I was able to move into a left turning lane. Feeling a great relief, I pulled into the cemetery entrance. I found myself on the large main road.   Looking ahead, I could see several side roads branching off to the right.  I passed a couple roads focusing on a beautiful shaped, tall fir tree. “Aw Shade.”
 
Turning onto the smaller dirt road, I parked under the giant size fir tree giving lots of shade and turned off my engine.  Comfortable with my find, I reached for my drink. That is when things got interesting.
 
“Pull up to the next tree.”  A sudden strong urge was clear.
“No, this one has more shade.” I reasoned back at myself.
“Pull up to the next tree.” A strong sense of urgency was building. 
“Why was I creating all this tension for myself?”
 
It became clear I had to follow this prompting if I was ever going to eat my sandwich.  I turned the key and moved to the next tree. 
 
Once under the smaller tree, I felt bewildered with myself. I realized the lack of shade in comparison to what I had just left.
 
Logically, I knew the other tree offered much more shade. “Why did I move? Why was I arguing with myself?”
 
My bewilderment left as I looked out the right passenger window of my car.  There on the large headstone in large letters was the name of my Chiropractor. 
 
"Drury Lee White," read like a neon sign. (Fictitious Name.)
 
The new grave site of the senior, Drury Lee White. The father of my chiropractor, who had taken his life.  
 
My eyes locked on the headstone. Shock! I stared in amazement.
 
The realization of how I had been led, guided, manipulated to be right where I was in that moment could be felt throughout every cell in my body. Chilling, surreal experience became a new awakening.
 
I reflected on the familiar prompting and feeling. I realized, this had not been the first time I had been guided or lead or heard voices in my head. 
 
I knew some unseen energy had been with me all of my physical life time. This was the beginning of a new awareness, an awakening to many answers. 
 
Now, I was open to new possibilities for learning and new understanding. 
 
Gratitude for the gift to know I wasn’t alone. Gratitude for the reminder, I am never alone.